From the beginning, it was a crazy mix of struggle and bliss. I felt wild, like I was starting over and had the ability to redefine myself however I wanted to because no one knew me yet. The island gave me community, diversity, and eventually peace.
New challenges presented themselves on a daily basis, both all around me and within myself. I had to find a job, a home, new friends, everything. But you know what they say – you can’t learn and grow from within your comfort zone. And for me – I came here to heal. Over two years ago, I moved away from my past and landed in a completely unfamiliar environment, once again going on a gut feeling that I just needed to leave. Perhaps it was running away, or perhaps it was simply an honest attempt at starting over. I didn’t necessarily know what I was looking for, but all I knew for certain was that somewhere along the way I’d lost myself, and I needed to rediscover who I was. I landed in a small, sleepy town on the north shore, and the island – its people, its culture, and its raw beauty – was exactly what I needed.
I realize that these observations all may sounds cliché, but for me they ring true. The ocean showed me that any slate can be wiped clean, possibilities are never-ending, and that there is beauty in depth. Things may continue to crash into you and try to sweep you away, but we are resilient. Water can whisk life away in an instant, but we also rely on it to keep us alive and thriving. It washes over the strongest substances and over time creates its own path.
It is both my terror and my inspiration.
In a word, it is balance.
Living here has been an indescribable experience, and the thought of leaving gives me a feeling that’s difficult to put into words. Although I feel I’m now ready for a new journey, I will always cherish the lessons I’ve learned here and the memories I’ve made.
It will be hard to leave, to say the least. But it may be time – I have so much to look forward to and I’m ready to learn and grow again.
May we all have the opportunity to find our island, and allow ourselves to grow.